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May 20th, 2008
12:39 pm - week recap; food journal 05/20/08
friday, the 16th: audrey came over for my late kind of birthday party, only hannah was grounded because of her damn grades so she couldn't come.
saturday, the 17th: up until 5, when we finally passed out then woke up at 11 and she left a little bit later. headed to the market with mom and little sister, got a call as we were leaving from my dad that he fell off a ladder and hurt his hand. we drove there, saw my dad, drove him home, went to the hospital right after, turns out he did break his hand, and we waited there for about three hours before we left. my dad called around 11:45 for my mom to get him, he got home at about 12:15 with a cast, and we ate dinner before watching a little tv and hitting the sack at about 1:30.
sunday, the 18th: sleeping schedule, from 1-something to 11:30, ate mac and cheese, got dressed for choir, and showed up at powell hall at 12:45. we sat in the balcony for the first half of the concert, then went in the basement where mrs. pottinger freaked out about our line-up. exciting stuff. then we went on stage where we sang two songs then gov. blunt came out to speak at the podium. i was five feet from him since i was at the end of the risers and could've back-handed him. however, i did not. after the concert, met the composer of our accapella piece, and got dropped off at the diner where hannah, audrey, and i ate dinner. got dropped off at home, did nothing, then made a cake at 10:30 and went to bed around 2. well, i had to listen to my podcasts before bed.
monday, the 19th: read the odyssey, did a couple tests, really did nothing besides that. went to the library, paid a ten dollar fine, got four movies, six cds, and a book containing lost beatles interviews. went to the grocery store, got nothing really besides milk, bread, shredded cheese, oh and contact solution.
today, tuesday, the 20th: woke up to my dad falling down the stairs at 8:30. he didn't re-break his hand thankfully, ate breakfast, did a couple tests on robinson crusoe, stalled, and i am now all alone in my house while lexi and my dad go to the park with my dog. i don't know why my dog went, because my dad has a BROKEN HAND IN A CAST, but whatever floats their boat.
food journal:
a glass of milk
about 1/3 of the lays stax cheddar tin
a hershey bar
reese's fast break mini size
Current Location: 10 days to hct
Current Music: I've Seen It All - Bjork feat. Thom Yorke
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May 19th, 2008
01:26 pm - i remember this; food journal, 05/19/08
one piece of chocolate cake with chocolate cheesecake filling.
one glass of water.
and in a little bit, a microwave cheeseburger.
damn convenient little yummy things.
transferring some things from my physical journal i liked:
1. people are constantly evolving
i am not the person i was yesterday
i will forgive but never forget
maybe it's not so much about forgetting
as it is about learning to be okay with the actions of everyone else
[and the lack of control that you have over them]
take my hand, i'll show you what
it is to be alive
the life boat's nearly full
let's [let someone else in and] jump in the water
and show them what it's all about
2. and they wonder why we love so much
they wonder why the bitterness doesn't overcome us
this is being truly happy
losing everything and finding yourself in the process
"remember, i will always love you. no matter what."
3. because life is one big parade with a lot of ruined floats
life is one big parade where the un-ruined floats fly away
4. i get attached to two-minute friends
meeting in line for anything, really
i find myself crying of loneliness
and i can't sleep
the ghosts of two-minute friends
the songs that want to be written
and hearts that wish they could rest
waiting for a [loving] tap on the shoulder
i'll be here for the rest of the night
singing for restless hearts
that can't stand the loneliness
i'll be here for you
a frame waiting for a canvas yet to be painted
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/bitospud/courier/white/hungry.gif) hungry
Current Music: Wheel Inside the Wheel - Mary Gauthier
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12:44 pm - and i want to know my fate if i keep up this way
i've decided to keep journaling. once a day. religiously. i don't know if i'll be able to keep it up, but damn it, it'll be the summer soon and i'll have time. hopefully i'll have the initiative.
...things to do for summer...
-on the computer-
*fixing my online store, selling more stuff
*empty my 'videos to rip & downloads' folder
*try to get to 10,000 songs [i'm at 5,700 something]
*ripping all my dvds to my ipod
*filling up my album artwork
*having an album by almost every artist that has a song on my itunes
-off the computer-
*six flags
*picnicking
*ironing grilled cheese
*reading at least 20 books
*read something by jack kerouac
*buying a dvd recorder and using it for nearly everything
*watch alice in wonderland, and any other movies anyone suggests
*modest. mouse. in concert. enough said.
-learning-
*to play the balloon [go watch benny and joon]
*at least 5 bob dylan songs on the guitar and/or piano
*at least 1 chuck berry song on the guitar
*to ride a bike
*butterflies and hurricanes on the piano
*to play poker
by the way, i'm obsessed with bob dylan. that kid was adorable and i'd do him hard about 50 times. but not now. young bob dylan was adorable. now he's just creepy.
Current Location: 11 days to hct (:
Current Mood: hungry
Current Music: Bixby Canyon Bridge - Death Cab For Cutie
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March 21st, 2008
02:56 pm - food journal 03-21-08
a cup of cereal with around 3/4 cup of vitamin d milk.
two pieces of gum.
microwave cheeseburger with 1/4 cup of milk.
one more piece of gum.
and now i'm contemplating eating the peanut butter wafer right next to me.
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February 11th, 2008
03:16 pm - baby it's cold outside
cold feet. [literally]
something has me nervous for nothing.
it's 20 outside.
keep it pushing.
let's see if we can get to 25 before the end of the day.
i'm in love with the NITA vid.
Current Location: my room
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/bitospud/courier/white/cold.gif) cold
Current Music: NITA - PATD
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December 27th, 2007
02:44 pm - You are absurd you say the cutest things I've ever heard
I need some shelter from the cold air and someone to warm my heart.
A harmonic tune intertwines with your eyes.
A lovely brown with a symphonic shine.
I adore you dear.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/bitospud/courier/white/happy.gif) content
Current Music: Go to Heaven - The Pierces
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September 26th, 2007
12:56 pm - :]
God, today is such a good day. Got like 34534509 movies, I'm excited to watch them all, Gossip Girl and Top Model is coming on tonight. Had a Panera Bread chocolate chip muffin in the morning, made friends with the people at Hollywood Video, got the double take look from an ADORABLE guy, and I'm at my house all alone.
Hopefully it stays like this for a long time.
Current Mood: happy
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September 20th, 2007
10:54 am - Lord, blow the moon out please
How is it that things can change oh so quickly in a matter of a week? I've probably been happier than right now, but I haven't been this happy in a long time. No problems, I feel like I have nothing to write about, which explains the lack of journal updates. I read my last entry and I never wanna go back there again. I think I've managed to put a wall up between myself and every guy out there. Doesn't sound like a good thing, right? It is for me, I can't get attached so easily if I keep my distance. I won't give up, I won't stop looking, I'll just stop obsessing. Right now, I don't really need love, I've got enough things to keep me busy.
Karma finally worked in my favor, eh?
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September 8th, 2007
03:28 am - oh wow [fishing through youtube video comments]
"I met William once too. It was pretty kool, me and my friend waited outside their concert for like 2 hours, and it was only me and her left, and then they came out.
I have this necklace, or had, that I got from my very best friend a week before he killed himself. It's a razorblade and then it says on: "only love you. stay with me."
Anyway, when I met william, I decided I wanted to give it to him, since TAI means so much to me, and William even more to me.
They've helped me through some pretty rough times, and if it wasn't for TAI, I wouldn't have gotten through my friends suicide.
So anyway, I told him the story, and when I was finished I held it oout to him, but he didn't want to take it since it meant so much, but I told him yes, I'm giving it to him and he has to take it, so he asked: "Are you sure?"
And yes, I was. at the moment. i'm kind of regretting it now, but what's there to do?
he hugged me and said it was beautiful, and thanked me. When he said thank you, I started to cry, and kind of gripped onto him, and he just hugged me back tightly, kind of stroking my back. it's kind of embaressing that I broke down in front of him, but yeah, he was so sweet.
I think I told him that I miss my friend so much
When I stopped gripping onto him he gave me a kiss on the forehead and I said sorry, he said it's okay, and then I told him to please not throw it away, and he promised he wouldn't.
The Academy Is... are so sweet."
What a fucking amazing story.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/bitospud/courier/white/embarrassed.gif) touched
Current Music: Everything We Had [acoustic] - The Academy Is...
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01:09 am - plastic wings and plastic smiles
I could never have ENOUGH music. Some more I need:
San Francisco - Alkaline Trio
Red and Blue Jeans - The Promise Ring
Fight For Your Right - Beastie Boys
Black Dog - Led Zeppelin
God, I could never listen to enough Zeppelin, but I really could, jealousy gets me. I wanna play guitar like that. However, I did learn how to play Down and Out on guitar, so it's a start.
photoshop me, take out the imperfections and highlight the one thing you like
i won't mind, i swear
it's almost positive that you care enough to do that
but not quite
now some people asked, i'll tell you
what "stolen-skulls" [my hotmail] came from
it's basically the idea of people in general
just being clones of one another
everything in, on, and around your skull
someone told you what to do with it
it's okay, we all do it to ourselves
we were all taught what we should like and not
people told you to straighten your hair
put on foundation
like this, try that, taste this, hate that
want him, love her, smell him, reject her
do this to your face, take that off of your body
and we're such hypocrites
most people that say they don't care about what people think
tell people that so others will think they don't care what they think
but they care more than the people that don't say it
so tell me whatever you want to
i'll be listening
i do care what people think of me
call me fake, sure go ahead
all the shit you have to say
i'll take it, so go ahead
"when you diss, it's just food for the flowers to grow"
http://youtube.com/watch?v=EUaCOOuific&mode=related&search=
i'm in love with this kid, check him out
Current Location: jess' room
Current Mood: meh
Current Music: Mayonnaise [acoustic cover] - SP
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September 6th, 2007
12:02 pm - Sing for absolution, sing for remission
A point is simply a location
so tell me where to find all those points you made earlier
because they don't make sense
never mind that, someone else is running through my mind
not really running, more like strolling
carefree and here to stay
"i only dream of you and you never knew"
let's play connect the dots, being you and me
how long will it take
i'll find you but don't walk away when i do
you've been here all this time
"you're already the voice inside my head"
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/bitospud/courier/white/awake.gif) awake
Current Music: Here is no Why - Smashing Pumpkins
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September 4th, 2007
10:44 pm - I'm gonna post on this from now on
Yeah I used to post on my freewebs but I...don't really want to any more, so I'll just post here from now on.
http://www.freewebs.com/benevolent-kisses/
Link in case you care to read previous entries.
Yep.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/bitospud/courier/white/good.gif) good for lack of a better word
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July 16th, 2007
01:50 pm - Wow...
I never post on this thing, or use it for that matter. I've decided that I might possibly start using this, probably to post poems I've written. So here's a poem until next time called Time. [one of my favorite that I've written]
They say time is precious,
That time is of the essence,
But what is this illusion?
What is time?
It goes by, they say,
But I don't see anything.
They even say, how time flies,
Does it have wings?
Never have I seen it,
Never have I understood it's physical being.
But I do know some things,
I know the time that I'm away from you.
Time is precious.
It is of the essence.
But no time is worth my time,
Unless that time is spent with you.
How time weighs heavily on my heart.
Oh, how time does eat away at me.
Time is not physical, but rather spiritual,
For no time is more spiritual then when you're with me.
Current Location: my room
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/bitospud/courier/white/apathetic.gif) indifferent
Current Music: Let the Flames Begin - Paramore
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May 10th, 2007
08:54 pm - Hello
Hello everyone, I'm new to the LJ community so a little about me.
My name's Michelle.
I'm turning 15 in 2 days.
I'm probably one of the nicest people you will ever meet.
I'm grateful for a lot of things I have and rarely ask anything of my parents.
Sometimes I'm a hypocrite.
Don't underestimate me because of my age, that's a quick way to get on my bad side.
I'm more mature than most people that are three years older than me.
Easiest way to find that out is probably talking to me about music.
That's enough about me for now, it's sounding kind of narcissistic now.
Until next time, ciao!
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/bitospud/courier/white/artistic.gif) creative
Current Music: The Minstrel's Prayer by Cartel
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